I really shouldn’t have.
I NEVER KNEW THIS
I NEVER KNEW THAT WAS WHAT AMERICANS MEANT WHEN THEY SAID “QUITE”
WHY DIDN’T ANYBODY TELL ME
SUDDENLY THAT ONE SONG THAT GOES “HELLO I MISS YOU QUITE TERRIBLY” MAKES LIKE A MILLION TIMES MORE SENSE
are you serious british people
i feel like this means i’ve been overestimating your enthusiasm about things for my entire life
All my friends
All of them
Morgan is moving to Maryland.
Tricia to Jacksonville.
Cortes might as well be going to the Airforce.
Ben is going to USF (while it’s not that far, I still probably won’t see him, like, ever.
Sydney is going to Kentucky.
And the only people I have left are people that I barely see anyways.
Yes, I do have other friends. But, no one like Tricia or Morgan. No one. I’ll just be alone all the time. And replaced with all the new friend everyone gets to have as they move away.
No one’s going to bother talking to me. No one ever does. I don’t even want the bullshit that people will, because I sure as hell know that everyone will get busy, move on with life, and just forget to even care. Who could blame them really?
And I just get to sit here a freak out about the fact that I’m going to be entirely alone after this summer. And everyone else, gets to celebrate that they finally get to leave this stupid area.
I get to fall deeper into my hole of solitude, while I take mostly online classes or otherwise ignore everyone else in classes so cutting my chances at making friends. And I get to just cry about that, while everyone plans their happy departures.
Yes. I’m happy for all my friends that are going on to doing better things.
But fuck, I’m going to have no one left.
All the people I’ve needed and am attached to will be gone.
because it really seems like it to me.